assistant principals comforted her. Soothed her. Took her into one of their offices. She must have cried. She
must have buried her head into her hands. Rocked back and forth. "Why is he doing this to me?"
And what, dear readers, is "this"? "This"
is a plot. One of his plots in this case, but a principals' plot nationwide. A standard plot instead of a standard test. The
plot rids the schools of the teachers. The teachers who say "no". "No I won't do that illegal thing;
no I won't allow you to call me honey.... No, I won't drink champagne and talk about your first kiss. I won't giggle
at your stupid sexual innuendo either...."
I now write again of my own PTSD "this..." That what PTSD does, it circles a round and back and through our bodies.
It does not let us rest. It does, however, take its "rat-a-tat-tat-" pounding and lift nervous fingers
to computers' keyboards.
Kim. Return to her story...."
for her is a document. "This" is a letter. An email. "This" is a conversation with his suck
up teacher friend. A friend who'd loaded her ethics onto the district's barge of abuse. She lied in exchange for a classroom
or grade level preference. Maybe a "special assignment" or a "supplement."
"I need you to do me a little favor," he would say.
And what is that favor?" Perhaps it's an "email of concern." They'll sit together to write
that poison. They'll use time--their salaries--not to assist teachers in classrooms with better, more vibrant instruction,
but to correct grammar errors in this friend's "letter of concern."
"What do you want me to write?" might ask his friend minion, the reading
coach. "Write that Werner saw everything. Write that Werner supports me; that she and I talked about it.
That Werner could not believe what she saw her do."
Let's, together, imagine her life at that school. She, an African-American educator, had been teaching
for almost thirty years before she worked for him. He, a white non-hispanic man, then in his forties, had been appointed
to the principalship of a brand new school. I imagine he looked to her to meet age and racial balance, for to hire primarily
young white women would be frowned upon by his "higher-ups."